The Best Kind of Pain

i never thought i could feel this pressure again, the kind that makes you tired and feel alive at the same time. like your working every part of your body for good. riding my bike these past two days has helped me come to life so much. to feel that burning in my legs and in my chest is everything. until i can feel happiness again, this feeling is my sanity. it’s saving me.

warm thoughts

i don’t know about you but when i wake up coffee is the FIRST think i want. it’s the first thing i’m thinking about. shoot even when i’m about to climb into bed the night before i already can’t wait to wake up just so i can have some coffee. this morning i rode my bike in the cold chilly air just to get some (because i was too lazy to get creamer last night when my mom let me use her car lol) and it was such a good way to start my day 😊 i’m still sleepy but my body feels good, my thoughts are doing okay and all of me feels warm. 

A Love For Caffeine

I always wonder if people love coffee as much as i do. lol coffee has always been something more than what it is, to me. it’s what gets your day going, what makes you smile. it’s comfort and something to do, something to share. it’s connection, a chance for a memory. starbucks has gotten me through some of the darkest times in my life. not just from being a customer but also from having the chance to work there. i’ve been at a huge loss lately, missing the place i used to call home. i’m praying hard i can get rehired, because i was a damn good barista! and it sucks to not be doing what you love.

The Best Single Sentence I Read Today That Gave Me Hope

we think a million of them a day. you probably already know what they are.

what should i wear? what do i want to eat? should i text this person or call? do i wanna go to that party?

thoughts 💭.

but have you ever asked yourself.. is what i’m thinking good for me? are my thoughts helping me or hurting me? am i in control of what i’m thinking or is it something that i’m just letting myself think and it’s getting out of control?

i personally have the hardest time harboring my thoughts to stay positive. to turn what’s slowly sending me into a spiral into something that’s gonna lift me up and bury those negativities.


However. Jesus is always the one thing that helps me cleanse my thoughts. his word, my sermons. i’ve been learning how important it is to make sure when you wake up the first thought you put into your head is pure. because it’ll determine the rest of your day. this phrase “choose to be kingdom minded” means everything to me. it’s a reminder that you don’t have to focus on what financial or relationship problems you might be facing. or how sad you are because you lost a friendship or lost a job. you have a choice to choose what you think, and if you think about Gods kingdom and all his goodness you are setting yourself up for a good day. a day full of sunshine with a little bounce in your step.


Ephesians 3:20 (emphasis) “God will do exceedingly abundantly all that i ask or think. because i honor him, his blessings will chase me down and overtake me. i will be in the right place at the right time. i am surrounded by Gods Favor”

Pursing Positivity

Everyday we wake up and before we have even had a chance to think about what day it is. What time it is. we check our phones. We allow thousands of likes and comments and what happened while we were sleeping to filter through our minds. And ultimately it’s those little moments that determine what our day will be like. How we will feel about what happens to us or what’s said to us. We just don’t realize it. I’ve always been told that those moments are crucial. As a woman who loves God and recently got back into listening to my sermons from the amazing pastors Rick Warren, Levi Lusco and Joyce Meyer.. I’ve been learning that it’s important to start your day the right way. And you might think… well how do I do that? And the answer is, it’s up to you. It depends on what you like to do, what you believe in. Whether it’s going for a run, or listening to music that makes you dance or smile. Or simply getting out of bed and walking to the bathroom to look in the mirror and tell yourself “I’m loved. I’m beautiful. I have a job. I’m good at my job. I work hard. I love myself. Today will be a good day because I’m choosing for it to start and end that way.” You won’t get it right in one day. You’ll wake up some days and still have those moments where you feel like the worlds ending or like you should just stay in bed. But I’m here to tell you as someone who personally fights through those challenges daily… YOU CAN DO IT. ♥️